Pain

March 9th, 2007

“Pain…give yourself a name, call yourself contrition
avarice of blame”

Pain

July 1st, 2006
it is etched, scarred, and permanent
in our lonely minds
the hardest words said to us
were the ones the hurt the most

22 clueless students filled the small room
not knowing that this day
would change there life forever

when the words were said
everybody fell silent and
stared
at the ground in disbelief

when I looked up from my gaze
i saw 21 other faces
staring at the ground

it seemed as if somebody
would have pinched us
we would wake up
from this bad dream
horrible nightmare
that we feared

as my almost tear filled eyes
wondered around the room
I met Shaun’s stare
he was sitting on the end of a coffee table
and when I looked into his eyes
I saw sadness
for the first time

from that moment on
I knew this wasn’t a dream
this was a living nightmare
there wasn’t anything anybody could do
to change that

every day that followed
I knew none of our lives
would ever be the same

and to this day
we all are sitting in that same room
staring in disbelief
just as we did
on that horrible july morning